Naptime during the day in the babyroom is a very quiet time, one that tempts me often to fall asleep along with the little angels in my care... I have started a new book that Erin lent me to occupy the time.
“Reading is sometimes an ingenious device for avoiding thought.”
"Chapter One"
"I am Ninety. Or ninety-three. One or the other. When you are five, you know your age down to the month. Even in your twenties you know how old you are. I'm twenty three, you say, or maybe twenty seven. But then in your thirties, something strange starts to happen. It's a mere hiccup at first, an instant of hesitation. How old are you? Oh i'm- you start confidently, but then you stop. You were going to say thirty-three, but your not. You're thirty-five. And then you're bothered, because you wonder if this is the beginning of the end. It is, or course, but it's decades before you admit it.
You start to forget words: they're on the tip of your tongue, but instead of eventually dislodging, they stay there. You go upstairs to fetch something and by the time you get there, you cant remember what it was you were after. You call your child by the names of all your other children and finally the dog before you get to his. Sometimes you forget what day it is. And finally you forget the year.
Actually, it's not so much that i've forgotten. It's more like i've stopped keeping track. We're past the millennium, that much I know - such a fuss and bother over nothing, all those young folks clucking with worry and buying canned food because somebody was too lazy to leave a space for four digits instead of two- but that could have been last month or three years ago. And besides, what does it really matter? What's the difference between three weeks or three years or even three decades of mushy peas, tapioca, and depends undergarments?
I am Ninety. Or Ninety-three. One or the other."
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